Deciding
We returned home and I decided this would mark the beginning of my second recovery. I decide quitting the job and the church was but one step to finding my way back to my true self. I had been cut back and pruned for a purpose. The spring was coming and I was going to be ready. I sat down and I wrote for me and for Stella and for Hope:
Lovely child of God, right in this moment I love you and I’m with you and for you. You do not have to strive for one more second, you can admit you are broken and broken hearted, you can make room for yourself and your recovery and your family and your work - whatever it may be. You are physically, emotionally and spiritually malnourished and it is time to return to yourself. This world really does need your gifts, but not this way, not this version. We need you well. We are cheering for you. And waiting patiently for you to find your way to the other side of this Grief. Remember, progress over perfection. Forget the destination - focus on the journey.
